Maybe I've hit a wall, I don't know. But my newer sense of self-confidence led me to wear something I hadn't dared. And I look HUGE. The fabric is incredibly unflattering, I look like I'm trying to wear two different outfits at once.
I'm at work. I just looked down and saw, really saw how huge my belly is. And I realized that no matter how much I feel like I'm progressing right now, it's still just a drop of water in the ocean.
How far do I have to go? I don't know. How long will it take me? I don't know. I think at this point there is simply no real way to "know" anything.
I thought I was going to break down and despair. Why don't visible results happen more quickly?!
Then, I started to write this blog entry and I realized this: I'm still in the starting gate of this journey. I can't start asking are we there yet? When we have barely even begun. I have a lot further to go! And maybe I'll feel better about everything if I create some goals, both short and long term. Then I can measure my progress. This way, I am not stuck in the cycle of anguish and depression. Rome wasn't built in a day! Neither was I!
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